I am 20 years old...

Oh NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO...

22-10-2008 = I am officialy 20 ....and it's really scared me...coz i'm gettin O-L-D-E-R....

Definition of OLD: 

advanced in years or age old person>, showing the characteristics of age old at 20> (source: meriam-webster)

I told my mom about this, and her response was "well, everyone would get old, and you're freak if you stay young forever".. 

That's true right? and Yes, truth is always hurt.

But anyway, I had a wonderful b'day although there is no surprise (as I requested, I beg my sis and Mr.lim abt this).

Thanks to Mok Yee Ling (Richele Mok), as the first person who wished me (send me msg at 21-10, 23:59), and all the people who whished me via sms, face-to-face, and friendster. Love ya all....

The Funniest Part

I admit that I don't really like surprise onmy b'day. Don't ask me why,coz I don't know the reason too. So, although I requested to my sis and Mr.Lim for no surprises, they plan 1 for me.

Mr.Lim secretly asked my sis to bought me a bday cake. So, after she finished her class at 1, she went to Sunway Pyramid to the cake. Me and Mr.Lim were at media hub doing my (bloody) PR assignment, when she called. Here is the conversation.

Sis: "where are you?"

Me: "college. why?"

Sis: "can you pls help me?"

Me:" why?what happened?"  (panic, cz i thought somethin happend to her)

Sis: "can you come to pyramid now?i'm here but i realized that i don't have money after i paid taxi, and i left mt ATM at home"

Me:"what are you doing there?I still doing assignment"

Sis:"I...aiya, you just come here. faster" 

Me:"OK, give me 20 mins"

Then, I told him abt this, and Mr.Lim volunteer to help me send money to her. I havent realize anything, but just feel confuse, coz ususally my sis never went shopping alone. So, I con't my work and we went to pyramid.

After that, my sis told me that SHE WAS MEANT TO BUY ME A BDAY CAKE, BUT SHE FORGOT TO BRING HER MONEY. So, It ended up by I BOUGHT MY OWN CAKE...hahahahahahha.....

Full House

We had a dinner at Niu Zhe Xui, Ara Damansara at nite. A new---FULL HOUSE...

We'd got a great experience from the restaurant. The concept of the restaurant is actually something like the Apartment, the curve. The owner made the whole restaurant looks like a h-o-m-e. There were bath room, closet, bed, garden, kitchen, balconi...

The food is nice...and the price is affordable...

One word to describe -----UNIQUE...

and here is some pictures of the nite...

#Full House LifeStyle and Cafe

#The B'day gurl

#The Boyfriend

# Starter1: Tiger Prawns Coctail (9/10)

#Starter2: Mushroom Cappucion (7/10)

#Main Course 1: Pan Sear Doly Fish (9/10)

# Main Course 2: Wok Sear Chicken Chop (9/10)

#Acting like ther is a candele. no candle..wat to do???!!!Blame him!

# Dessert: Choc Brownie (6/10, too sweat, n ice cream is melting)

#Happy Bday to me...My bday cake????!!!

# photoholic....

#Thanks to the waiter...

J-O-B

It's not easy to find a job.Really.I'm fresh graduate of Diploma in Communication who seeking for my very first JOB. When you still studying, you'll wish to finished your study as soon as possible and working. Me too. But until the moment I walked out from the examination hall, I realized that the feeling of graduated is not as good as I imagined of. Taking picture with colleagues and saying good bye to them is hard and painful.

But beyond all that, the most stressful things is finding job... and that's what I'm doing everyday right now. Wake up in the morning, take a bath, sitting infront of the comp and seeking job on jobstreet.com untill quite late. And every nite before I closed my eyes, I prayed that the next morining they will be an invite of an interview from any company that I applied to. The next day wake up, again, sit infront of the computer to check whether my resume had already viewed by the employer....

But thank's to the finder of internet, if there is no internet now, I think everything would be worst. Sending resume through post laju or maybe gp to company by company to ask for vacancy!Just like how the actor and actress in 70's movie. And I really feel great with jobstreet.com. I think that it is a really useful webiste for people who seek for a job. Thanks to Jobstreet.com!

Actually due to seeking for my very first job, I also din expected a high position and salary. All I just want is a job that suites my study background and personality and the most important thing is I can gained experienced form there. I dun mind working as receptionist or junior assistant...or some other simple thing that even SPM level can do. Coz I know that everything should be start from 0. We have learn how to walk before we could run!

I just went for 2 interviews today. The first one was introduced by my friends and also Jobstreet, the company seems good and the salary promised also fine. But it just don't match/suite my study background and incovenient working time for me. And it's in Mont Kiara, place that located at the another end from where I stay. The second interview was introduced by my college's teacher, only a part-timr job, and I think there is 80% possiblity the company will hired us (me and Mr.Lim), as they really need people who know mandarin urgently...Hope there would be a good news from them tommorow.

For all people who already working right now, I think that you should really appreciate and cherish the job that you have now... Coz today, in this complicated society, getting a job is not easy,...it's frustating!!!!!Any job for me?????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The "SHAME" in Me...

Nobody is perfect. I strongly believe the statement. And I think that's really true. No matter how a person looks beautiful/ handsome, there's must be a time where she/he looks ugly. Imagine that you see a beautiful lady walking confidently down the street, the winds blow her long silky hair and a song playing in the air. But Oops! she suddenly she fell down.The song stopped, and all eyes on her...

What I mean is that no matter how you protect your image in the public, there's a time where an "accident" takes place and make you feel shame...I had went through those experieced too!!!

1st incidence... +

Back to high school time, twice a year I will went back to my hometown, Indonesia during the school holiday. So there is one time where I took Malaysian Airlines with my friends to go home and suddenly I have the need to go to the toilet. For your info, I'm a kind of person that "lazy" to go to ther toilet if i don't feel comfortable with the toilet. As you know the plane's toilet is quite small and I very rare go to the toilet in the plane. But that times, i was really have the need. So, I got no choice. I went into the toilet and just did what i had to do. Maybe I was too rush and really cannot "tahan" till i forgot to lock the door. OMG! When I was nearly finished the job, suddenly someone open the door and he was one of my guy friend. My face turn white before it could turn red and I was really shocked and dunno what to do. Luckily my friend's response quick,he said sorry and closed the door. What a stupid mistake!!!!! Luckily my shirt was quite long and covered my secret, important and sensitive part....hahaha....

2nd incidende...

My sis love shopping a lots and since we are live together here, so we often shop together (even though I din really shop). When two of us shopping, she would be the one who try a lot of shirts, and I would be the one giving the comment. So there is one time when she went to fitting room to try the shirt, but i'm not going together with her, coz we were seperated and I din not know she alrd went to the fitting room. Then she called me to find her at the fitting room cz she want to show me what she tried. So I walked in and I just shout her name and she response. The fitting room got alot of rooms and they used curtain as the door instea using the real door. Without confirming with her where she is,I just used my instinct and guess where is the room that she tried. Then she shouted and asked me to go inside and do a favour. So, I just confidentally open the curtain infront of me as i assume that she was inside. OMG! I was wrong! The moment I opened the curtain, I find an aunties halfly naked. Being shocked, I just closed the curtain without saying a word... *sorry auntie*

3rd incidence...

An escalator is a conveyor transport device for transporting people, consisting of individual, linked steps that move up or down on tracks, which keep the treads horizontal (Wikipedia's definition, hehe8)I got 2 shameful incident with escalator. First, me and Mr.Lim were just finish working at The curve and we were walking to the car park. While walking, were discussing about something seriously...Escalator got 2 sides rite? Right and left. When walking to the escalator, we just confidentaly choose the right sides, as we used the left side that morning to go up. So, we automatically assume that the left sides is to go down. Then we were talking and talking...and almost step to the escalator. Then I suddenly realize that the escalator is going up...Luckily my response was quick, realize that we were wrong, I pull Mr.Lim's hand and both of us laughing....*that's why I advice you guys to check the route of the escalator properly as they changed the up and down frequently*

The second 1 was in Sunway Pyramid and the same scene occur, but the difference is that this time we were going up but we choose the going down one. And what make it worst is that Mr.Lim had already step the escalator and so many people there...and as usual, I was the rescuing angel....hahahaha

hmmm...above are the incidence that I remembered so far....I'll share others when I experienced again...But hopefully I wont...haha...I just think it is OK and normal to be 'shamed' onced in ourlife...cz this is LIFE...

Back to Starbuck

5 May 2008, 2pm would be a special and historical day for me...because I will sit for the last paper of my Diploma in Communication Final Semester Exam...YIPPIE....waiting so long for this moment to come..and finally it's here. But unfortunatelly Social Psychology(SPS) is the final paper..This is the thing that really stressed me up...studying SP for your last day of exam?? that's really makes me feel abit psycho...haha...no la. Actually SP is not really hard and quite easy (as quoted my Mr.Lim)...but there's quite a lot of things to cover.

OK! There are 7 chapters to be studied and all of them looks important...I mean I used to aim several chapters that i think might be come out in the exam..and usually 85% of my guess is right...but for this time i can't really aimed...huh....no choice...have to read all!

I've studying since few days ago, but i cant realy concentrated...especially everytime i'm online (for reading notes purposed at 1st) i will attracted by You Tube and starts warching videos...OMG! I think that I cant finish study the subject. But luckly Mr.Lim called this morning and "ordered" me to dress up and pick me up to the nearest Starbuck to study...I'm quite lazy actually, but thinking that this strategy was success for studying Intro to Mass Medis (IMC) last time, I agree with him.

So there we are Sunway Pyramid Starbuck again! (that is the nearest from my house)And thank God it really works out and the mission was completec! The almost 2 hours "studying SP mission" makes me concentrated and i finish all the chapters (although confused in some parts la). hahaha...happy happy... hopefully like IMC I would oso succeed in th exam...

#Starbucks Coffee

#Dell.SP notes.Caramel Mocca.Manggo Passion.

#Concentrating (and sweating cz we sat next to the door and the sun was hot)haha

#Oops!caught you onlining while i'm studying!*Grrrrrrrr*

#Starbuck=Social Psychology???!!!???

I LOVE LIFE...

Finally finished my 1st paper of my Final Semester of Diploma in Communication Exam...feel so relief...now left 1 more final paper on next Monday which is the subject that confused me the most, the one and only Social Psychology...and then i will be FREE....yeah..i'm feeling great....

By the way, I was addicted to few new songs recently and one of them is Mariah Carey's new songs "Bye Bye"... The first time i heard is when i watched her performing in the American Idol 2008, when the song begins with a sweet rhythms I told myself that "wow! this should be a nice song"...and it really did not disappointed me...not only because it is sung by Mariah or the music is nice, but i rather think that the lyric is very meaningful... it just so simple and honest..

#click to enlarge image and see the lyric#

I lost three persons who are closed to me in the last 10 years... I could tell you that it was a really painful experienced that i ever had in my life. You could just speechless and donno what to do when you surrounded by such situation. You can't even cry to express your feeling..

2000, i was back from langkawi trip when my dad called and said that "He" just passed away. I was too young to understand the meaning of "passed away". So i just get confused and asked dad : "who's grandpa?"... I never cried since i received the phone call until the moment i stood in front of his coffin and looking at him who was already gone..

20007, I received a SMS telling me that "He" just passed away. It was the second time I received such news but still couldn't define the meaning of "passed away"... I did not went back to attend his funeral because of my passport problem...And only when I was home a month later, I found out that i would never find him reading newspaper when I went to his house again forever, then I was only recognize that I miss my uncle alot...

2008, again I received SMS telling me that "He" just passed away few minutes ago in the hospital...At that moment I just look at my phone and try to read and read again the SMS ensuring myself that I din read wrongly...But it was no mistakes...the 3 lines messages just so concise and simple and represent how mom feels of losing his dad, my grandpa...This time, i just realized that i finally understood the meaning of "passed away"...I kept telling myself that "I got no grandpa anymore"..

Sometimes, I asked myself, why do we live when we had to left forever? why do we breath when ther's a time where we'll be breathless forever? It just so strange to find that someone you love or someone who you just met is suddenly passed away...you'll never see him/her again...you'll never talk to him/her again...But I guess that's what we called LIFE... you live and you left, you breath and you don't,..I think the most important lesson of "live" is "cherish"... If you know to cherish your live, ur life would be meaningful and u'll left without regret...If you cherish every breath that you take, you'll breath without regret...and if you know how to cherish everyone around you, you'll never get sad when he/she is leaving...Luckily I cherish every "He" which already left..and did not feel regret they left because at least I know they are not suffering anymore and had reached a better place..... I LOVE LIFE...

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it. Life is beauty, admire it. Life is bliss, taste it.

Life is a dream, realize it. Life is a challenge, meet it. Life is a duty, complete it. Life is a game, play it.

Life is a promise, fulfill it. Life is sorrow, overcome it. Life is a song, sing it. Life is a struggle, accept it.

Life is a tragedy, confront it. Life is an adventure, dare it. Life is luck, make it.

Life is too precious, do not destroy it. Life is life, fight for it.

- Mother Teresa

mY f1rst...

2000, a 200 pages note book with a blue cover entitled "My Diary" is the place where i write all my secrets, my happiness, my sadness. 2003,i was too busy with all the school's assignment till i stopped to write. Since then it has finished its duty and I put it aside...

5 years had passed and i went through it without any words describing how did i live everyday of my life. Then i realized it just so weird and abnormal for me. When I started to know about "Blog", i never thought of having 1. But i though it is really a "cool" thing. I started to love reading other people's blog. It facsinated me. I don't know them, but I knew their story. I don't know them, but they share the world with everyone. Thus, I decide to have my own one.

So here it comes....2008, MY PERSONAL BLOG. I can't wait to share my story, my thoughts and my world...